Showing posts with label Cass Bird. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Cass Bird. Show all posts

Sunday, 24 December 2017

CLXXXIII




An Ode to Friendship

Not many people do the days with you
You know, each and every day
The day you wake up and your heart’s so heavy you need help carrying it out the door
The day you thought would be fine or even great and it wasn’t, it was almost unliveable
The day your world falls apart in front of your very eyes and you don’t even know how to say it let alone do anything to stop it
The day it starts fitting back together again
The day something happens
The day nothing happens
The day you feel everything all at once
The day you feel nothing at all
There’s not so many people there, on all of those days, or even most, or even a few
And the only way to know is to know 
And the only way to see is to wait, and see
It’s easier to be there, almost, for the months, for the years 
Skipping the tough stuff
Hearing the resolution story
Getting the short of it, because the long of it is done
And it’s not everyone’s burden to bear
The days
But there are some who will
And there are some for whom you will
And there is the beauty 
And the blessing 
And the best of everything 

Don’t you forsake it
Not even for a minute of those many many days

Don’t you forsake it

Thursday, 21 December 2017

CLXXX





The Sadness

I put on a brave face for everyone else
Why can’t I put on a brave face for me?
I sleep here in our bed
In our home
I dont sleep
I try to erase this word from my memory
Our, we, us
You’ve erased it 
Already
Took you a while to tell me.

I put on a brave face for everyone else
But to me I'm the saddest I've ever been
And I can't separate it out
Into losing you and losing us and losing me
Its all in there
The sadness in layers, upon layers
How will I sift down to the part where I'm losing me
And save it
While the rest is erased
Erased so easily.

I pace the hallway that was ours
Run my finger along the bedsheets that were ours
Dunk my head under the shower head that was ours
And I cry
To me I'm the saddest I've ever been
But only to me



[Images: Grace Hartzel by Cass Bird, Unknown, Karmen Pedaru for Glass Magazine]